i’m finding it sad that i have the hardest time using this blog for my personal thoughts.
I’m so scared by what people(mostly my friends irl) will say/think of me if i do, god i’m such a fucking wimp
it seems like its going to be an everyday thing, for mom and bro to say “you should get a job”
and now a new one “i expect As this semester”
…..i’m just gonna keep to my new yrs resolution…
upset=sew my problems away
why does it seem like i have to get new scissors for fabric every month!?!
i find it sad that i’m debating on not using my internet as much…after those five days……
well time to go blogging on my other blog that everyone forgot about.
so my mom has been having some problems with her health lately.
and well she came home, and was like “we need to talk as a family later about what the doctor said”
I’m scared shitless…..I’m finally over my Dad’s death…and now some bad news for mom’s health…
and when I questioned her about the seriousness of this, and is it curable.
she just said…she doesn’t know if its curable…….
……….i’m gonna have a complete break down if my mom dies
she’s the person i go to for everything
she’s basically my best friend
she’s the one i look up to…
why the fuck does it have to happen like this NOT EVEN A FUCKING YEAR AFTER MY DAD DIED!!
I still need her….i’m only 18 not even 19, im a dumbass, i hate this so much….
….i just hope she’ll be fine…. i really do….
…i don’t wanna have to go through another parent’s death…